My Secret Escape: Virtual DJ

You can laugh at me. I am a single mother with a three year old son. However it has ALWAYS been my dream to DJ. Now I am finally Djing at home. I am a Disc Jockey late at night! I brought the music software program over 2 years ago, but I recently reinstalled it into my current computer.

This DJ program is one of the best by far! I know I will see fans of "Serato" and "Pioneer" here. However you have to remember that I am a single mother who doesn't really have the time to become the next AVICCI. I am just having fun spinning music that I love! I mess with the phasers, pitch shifters, flangers, and other really cool effects on here. I often go back to my 19 year old Goth days and spin Gothic, Industrial, EBM, EDM, Techno Industrial Trance and lovely New Age music.

I am having the time of my life .....and all of this happens late at night.
I have my awesome RIG headphones (that my husband brought a while ago). Now I am slowly but surely becoming a hot new DJ in my mind!  I love it.I am learning more and more every time!

There is nothing better than creating "Midnight Podcasts" and creating awesome scary looking flyers
for my playlists.

If you want to hear my stuff go to "DJ Mezzaninn/ on Mixcloud.

It is not only a hobby. I plan to teach my baby boy how to DJ when he is around 7 years old.

Who knows. He could become the next AVICCI.... (joke with that name. LOL).

Daycare Issues

I was called by VNA and I was offered a job position and interview next week. I really wanted to accommodate the lady on the phone so I made myself sound like a great candidate. They called twice already this week and now it is my turn to call them to schedule an interview. I am so tired of the same dilemma over and over again!

I filed for SSI and I am waiting on my Son's Individual Education Plan so I can get the "Special Needs" Label for my son. They have plenty of Daycares that offer help for ASD children. I am still in the LIMBO though. I think you heard me complain before, but just in case you didn't....here is the story. My son was recently diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder. The psychiatrist said "you can't work!. Daycare after Daycare will kick him out until he gets his diagnosis." She turned out to be right! The Preschool he goes to only keeps him in school for 2 hours a day!

Anyway I finally applied for Social Security Disability as the Caregiver role so I can receive assistance for my son. It is still in the beginning stage but there is hope on the horizon. Recently Denver Human Services asked me if I can limit my time there so they won't have to watch him for many hours at a time. They are the LAST Daycare I have!

I want to work very badly though. I have offers and opportunities left and right to work. I called a few Nannies but they are too expensive at the moment. I am also waiting on my Transition Housing (coming next week they said). So I figure I will interview Nannies in the area after I get my housing and some furniture in the house. I am at a critical time I think.

I got offers to work at the Buckley AFB (won't say what here. You will have to find me in that BIG BASE if you are looking for me....lol.) I am on the "end stage" of the hiring process. I got the extensive background check and everything done. So now I am strapped for Daycare!

To make it worse...CCAP has offered to pay Nannies now! So I will get assistance with Daycare costs soon too! I shouldn't be complaining. However the time is near and I need a job!

Best Christmas in Denver

This Christmas might be one of the best Christmas's Ever! Maybe it is because we are living in Denver and every winter day always feels like Christmas....but the generosity is high here!

I went to the SAM House and was notified that my child's presents are "Ready for pick up". As I waited outside the room, the Single Volunteers of Denver were wrapping them!
I went to get a nice Stocking for my three year old son and the sign said "please pick 10 items for your son." So I filled the Stocking with cars, trucks, toys, chocolate kisses and candy canes. Then a lady said "Okay the presents are being wrapped. Please help the volunteers label them for your son"

I walked in looking around and saw a huge bag filled with brand new toys! I saw an Electric Train Set from VTech! The I saw a huge box filled with shiny trucks, He got a pair of winter boots from Kohl's and we got a Hungry Hippo's Game too! There were more stuff they were wrapping! All for my son!I felt like I won the lottery! A mom who has an autistic spectrum child knows that she has to constantly keep him or her busy! It is not only gifts for him. It is also gifts for me!!

I truly appreciate this!!! I want to establish a non profit that will buy kids gifts every year! Everyone can donate one gift. It would be easy to do! I would love to donate gifts next year.

I got gifts too. I got the "Jennifer Lopez" Perfume. A lipstick from Elizabeth Arden. Nice sexy Body Lotions from Victoria's Secret. A beautiful Nine West Purse and a 25 dollar gift card!! All from perfect strangers who donated gifts to us. I want to say...THANK YOU, THANK YOU and THANK YOU again.

My dad and his wife are throwing a Christmas Party for my son this year too! They already brought over 20 presents for him. So already he has 30 presents and it is not even Christmas yet!! Can you believe it? I will have toys for him for years to come.

Not to be outdone my ESTRANGED HUSBAND sent us a Tablet for my son and a new Lap
Top for me! He is still asking us to move back to Florida. But please read my other blog posts on why I will not be able to return at this time. (Hint: An Obnoxious Level of Craziness we can expect if I do return). Well I will report how the Christmas Party goes!

CHRISTMAS 2016: DENVER X MAS IS VERY WONDERFUL AND MEMORABLE!!!

The Husband in the Background

The Husband calls almost every other day. We fight and fight and then we hang up the phone. I start to feel queasy and when I go to sleep at night I start to wonder about the "nightmare" that I am in.
I can't sleep and then I toss and turn and wonder why we even met in the first place!

It seemed right when we first met. It was great when we talked on the phone. We talked all of the time before we were married and we talked all of the time after we were married. We talk all of the time now and so I just can't accept that we are not staying married. I do in the waking world but when I go to sleep I scream at the forces of nature about why this became so screwed!!

Luckily he often feels the same way too. So we are now in a happy form of denial. We say we will stay together. We plan on seeing each other. We plan on living together again. We fight over the future about what state we will live in. He wants to live in Florida. I want to stay in Denver. We talk about moving to Washington State. We talk about moving to Utah, Arizona or New Mexico. We can't agree fully on anything or any state. He doesn't care that I got everything going here. I am starting to settle in and the case managers tell me of course not to uproot again. I will do what the professionals say because they said "they see this time and time again." Just when the wife is starting to make Head Way the husband has to try to control the situation again. So this is what I am dealing with.

Anyway I already put in for Child Support. We are waiting on that. I also moved into the Transition Apartment and I have 2 years to get on my feet financially. Sometimes he sends me 100.00 for coffee on our bank card, sometimes he sends another 100 for my son's clothes or things. He seems to think that he is doing the best that he can. Although we already calculated that he makes around 3500 a month because he is Truck Driving long distances. I talked to a Defense Lawyer and a Family Lawyer and asked if we could throw him in Jail for what he has done. Unfortunately there are no laws established at this time to protect a wife and child (children) from destitution.They did say that later I can sue him for damages at a later time.

I don't have the money or time to deal with this issue. I am sure the Child Support will kick in soon.

Barb Wire Dress

 

 

Most men respect the rules. I don't have a lot of problems with anyone or any man here. However this one guy acts like I walk around looking like this!

 

He tried to accompany me into the elevator while I was doing chores. I wondered if I might have to kick him in the balls in the elevator. Luckily I stared him down before he followed me in. I said "I am going to do this by myself." I gave him a warning look. He nodded in acknowledgement and luckily he backed off! But really! I shouldn't have to go through this in the first place.

 

He is a married man and he has many children. They are living with him in the shelter! One day he offered to tell us where someplace was and after that he tried to establish a "deep" bond. We talked and joked around and then I found out....his wife lives with them too. I said " Wait you are married? I don't want to befriend a married man. I don't need no drama here." He tried to explain how he is not happy with her and he is looking to move on with someone else. EEEK! I cut off all friendly ties with him and told him not to talk to me anymore. He seemed to agree at first. Then he started hitting on me again after a few days. I figured it was dead air. He knows where I stand. But then it became more obvious to myself and to others that he is actually staring at me. I didn't like how he suddenly became an issue. But I figured he would stop after a while. Guess what. He did stop. So I relaxed. But then he started up again. It was rather suddenly too.

 

Tonight I was a "Chore Leader" and he was one of the people doing his chores. He tried to hit on me while I was the supervisor. I told him...."cut it out. Go do your chores. I am not dealing with men right now in any way, shape or form." He tried to yap about how I should be on alert of other guys who will try to hit on me and that he is a friend warning me about other men's motives. This dude is making me feel like I need to wear a Barb Wire Jacket around him! I don't understand the audacity of this man. To make it worse is that he is risking himself to be kicked out, along with his entire family. If I report him (it will only take 5 minutes and one time) he will be gone! Stupid man. I am sure that he will start to feel a sense of fear when I reveal how crazy I can be.

 

The last straw? He decided to knock on my door at 11pm at night! I opened the door expecting it was night staff and there he was standing there, waiting to tell me a message. I looked at him disgusted and slammed the door in his face. The next morning I received a letter under my door. It was from him. He said "please call this number because last night my wife and I had a fight. I had to tell her that you and I were only friends and now she thinks we are having an affair. I have to talk to you. Please call!"

 

I told a male friend who also lives here and he said "Report it." So I told my Case Manager and showed him the letter. I told him to give him a strict warning. I told him to say "He is too look down when passes me in the hallway and never, ever, say a word to me again!" But the next day....strangely enough THE MAN WAS MISSING! He is not living here anymore. I guess he got kicked out after all. Well I don't care. I figure ...If the staff feels like he had to leave then so be it. I told him to leave me alone before and he didn't listen. Now look what happened!

 

I hate it when weird men decide to take it upon themselves to act that way with me. Well now he is GONE and my life feels better. His wife is still here with her children. Its just him missing from the would be scene of the crime. I warned the staff that I will kick him in the B8alls if he ever shows up at my doorstep late at night again.

 

UPDATE: A friend who lives here (another male) told me to REPORT HIM. I did. Now he is GONE! Ahhhh.....Back to living life again in peace.

 

I WILL GET PAID FOR TEETH CLEANINGS!

I went in for a Dental Exam and came out with a great proposition! I told the staff exactly what I needed for my teeth  I said "I need deep cleanings" because I didn't get them when I should have got them. The VA said that I could put that on as a Claim because I was supposed to get cleanings before I went to Afghanistan in 2011. They only cleaned half of my teeth. Then they were supposed to give me a cleaning when I came back. Instead they decided to clean the other half of my teeth. Years lapsed and now I need deep cleanings.

 I went to ASPEN Dental in Florida and it was a huge rip off! They gave me a free Dental Examination and Free X-rays so I thought they would help me out. Suddenly they brought me into the "Financial Office" and told me the procedures would amount to 2,000. If I wanted Teeth Cleanings I would need to pay 2,000.

This was the first time in my marriage I realized that he and I were poverty stricken. I realized that we didn't have any insurance except Tricare Standard and no dental insurance at all. I asked about going on Medicaid but it was not easy to get in Florida because according to them, we made too much money. All of these problems contributed to NO DENTAL INSURANCE.

Well now this is a problem of the past. Today I walked into the Clinic and got a free examination!
I also got free x-rays and then the Dentist offered me a chance to participate in his University. I will get free teeth cleanings if I attend their Boards. I will be a patient and multiple Dentists will clean my teeth and do deep cleanings of my gums, and they will get "Practicum Board Passing Experience" and I will get beautiful cleanings for my teeth. It is a win win! To top it off they will pay me for my time and effort to be apart of their Boards! Finally all of my Dental Needs will be taken care of!

EBT Pizza Unexpectedly

This is kind of terrible. However this is how the conversation went.

Homeless Friend: Hey, where are you coming from?

Me: The Denver Public Library. My son loves that place!

Homeless Friend: Great. Where are you heading now?

Me: To the Shelter. They are serving dinner now.

Homeless Friend: Oh...You don't want Shelter food do you?

Me: Yes I do. I am hungry!

Homeless Friend: Do you want a box of pizza instead?

Me: Are you sure????

Homeless Friend: Yes!

Me: I don't want you to use your cash.

Homeless Friend: Oh you don't need cash. You can buy it at the Seven Eleven.
If you buy it cold, then heat it up you can use your EBT card.

Me: What! I have an EBT card!

Homeless Friend: Come on let's go. You never knew that?

Me: No! I gotta to see this!!!

***So He treated us to delicious pizza that night.****

Offers of Marriage

"Missie I want you to marry me. Now that you are separated from that Husband." My Indian friend named A. Said. (names are protected). I thought about it for a minute and then said "Alright!"
He goes "Really?" and  I say "Really!". So the next thing you know he is seriously planning this.

"Missie Missie...Don't lie to me. I will do everything I can to come the USA. I have plenty of money, you know. Just tell me that this is true."

I try to change the mind of this man and offer myself to him as a GREAT FRIEND instead. "We can run all over Denver together! I will show you around. It will be so fun!" I realize that I am sort of lonely at this point. It would be great to be with a man who wants to be friends. However this is not what he wants. "If I come to Denver...you must date me, Missie." Now comes the control freak. He always ends up trying to demand me to date him. I believe in letting things happen naturally, but not him. Suddenly this Marriage idea is not so fun after all.

I tell him I am tired and that I must go to sleep. I wake up the next morning like, what was I thinking? We never ever met in person. How can he demand a marriage? Not a good idea.

Well I broke the news to him gently and now he is furious! I hate hurting my online friends.
Ah Well........I told him it was a crazy idea and that I will not be able to do it. He understood today. However I hate having conversations like this in the first place. In the meantime...

I wonder if I will ever get married again.

The Homeless Veteran Expo in Denver

"Is this bus going to the Stand down?" I asked. "No" said the Free Mason Elks Lady. "This bus is going to the Veteran's Exposition." She looked at me as if I should leave.

I smiled. I said  "I didn't know about the Veteran's Expo! Just my good luck!" She gasped. "You are a Veteran???" I smiled and said "Also a Combat Vet." I love shocking people with that one as well. Hahaha. The bus started moving and my son and I were off to the Veteran's Stand Down at the Armory.


When we got there...The VA staff served us coffee and donuts! They loved helping us because their claim to fame is...." WE HELP OUR VETERANS!" The Veteran's Expo is held once a year. They offered us so many goodies that I was practically stuffed before we walked in!

 I heard the announcement "If you have a home, a house or if you are living with someone....you are not considered homeless. This place is only for Veterans who have NO Home and who are living in the street, uninhabitable areas, (like cars, trucks, subway stations) who live in Tents, Shelters or Transition Housing". Half of the Veterans sighed and walked off the line.

However I felt like I won the lottery! I live in a Family Shelter. So I was fine. The VA staff passed by us again with more coffee and donuts. This is my utter weakness. I happily grabbed two donuts (one for me and one for my son) and chatted away with the other HOMELESS Veterans. This was a new day for me. I never thought that I would ever be a homeless veteran.

I met guys who lived in tents. I met guys who lived in Transition Apartments. I told them how I am waiting for my Transition Apartment in the Downtown Denver Area. My transition apartment looks like a double for the set of "SEX AND THE CITY!" I could not believe my luck! It is a new apartment complex that recently opened. The apartment complex wants their ultimate TAX BREAK. So they are moving homeless families and disabled people into their apartments. I will show you a picture when I move in. It is absolutely unbelievable! Marble Appliances and more! I will drink a glass of chardonnay the first night I move into that place.

We were talking about our pending Transition Homes and Apartments and started comparing notes about what place offers what and what neighborhoods they were in. "You should move to Decatur Place" someone said as if we have choices of where to go. "Hmm...Maybe I will" I said.

One man said "I lived there for two years and now I am homeless again." He said that he gave up on transition and permanent housing and now he prefers to live in a Tent. I said "You are just a HUD VASH Veteran waiting to happen!" The rumor is that ....if you live on the streets long enough....you will get a free House from the VA!

When the doors opened we walked in and got all kinds of goodies galore! I visited the desks with different organizations and from each table, I received a goodie bag! I got again....free coffees, free lunch, free sodas, free gift cards (from the Women's Veterans of Colorado) and just a bunch of stuff all FREE! When I finally thought it was too much....they showed me the Clothing Room.

 I walked out with a brand new War World II Trench Coat that fit me perfectly! I wear the size "very small" (petite) so it was amazing to me and everyone else that it fit at all!

I got a free Haircut (cut nicely with bangs and long layers) and everyone loved my smashing new look! Just when I thought things couldn't get better....

A Reporter walked up to me and interviewed me for the Denver Post! I gave him my email address. The next day he asked to interview me again for another Homeless Veteran Story! I was so thrilled.

All of my homeless friends saw me with brand new clothes, Victoria Secret Pajamas, A Trench Coat, I was carrying an authentic Army Hybrid Back Pack and were jealous! My son was with me and yes he caused trouble. However I was so happy that I hardly remember what he did. Someone offered to babysit for me while I got my haircut! This place was so nice and wonderful!

If you are a Homeless Veteran  in Denver, Please go the Stand Down. I wish I could go every year!

Welcome To Hard Times Veterans

Hello my name is Missie.

I am a homeless Veteran and I live in Denver, Colorado. I recently separated from my husband. I was a Stay At Home Mom in Colorado Springs for 3 years. My son has recently been diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder. I moved to Denver because my Dad thought it would be a great idea to start over here. However he failed to tell me that we would only be able to live in his house for one month. It is a 55 and over community and so we eventually got "Child Disturbances" letters.
My three year old son was told to leave. However they said that I could stay! Isn't that wonderful?

I decided to not put my son up in Foster Care. I packed my things and said "I am going with my son of course!" To where? A Homeless Shelter. Yes, this is where I ended up. In a freaking Homeless Shelter. However after a few weeks of setting up the room, (it has a key for the door) things got cozier and started to settle in. It is not easy living here and it is not easy telling the world what happened, because we are talking about my pride. However I do have a story to tell.

 Almost anyone can end up in a Shelter if they lose their job and do not save their money.
It can happen if you don't plan for it. I am a Combat Veteran and I am here enjoying life.
These are my adventures on a day to day basis. If you want to share your stories please email me here! EMAIL ME STORIES I will include yours in this blog.

I hope to start a NON PROFIT group that helps and supports Veterans in Denver who are going through hard times. Please email me your stories if you are a Veteran who is also homeless or if you have experienced hard times in your past. Together we will laugh, cry, and laugh some more. Here are my adventures in Denver as a Homeless Veteran.